433 Huat!<3

thought you like me. thought i can make you mine. thought i can hold on to you till death do us part. i never fear losing you before but now, every second i fear losing you. you always say i'm the best. is that a lie? i always thought you like me. but my dream of being with you crushed when you told me that you maybe like another guy. you even said you're saying his name out of suddenly. this changes that "maybe" into "really", you really like another guy. i dreamt of you being with that guy & i die on the spot. "Man killed by love?" if you don't like me in the first place, why must you say you miss me. whenever i scroll down to that message, i feel like killing myself for being such a fool. i'm happy cause you smiled at me. but this days.. you don't really smile at me anymore. i just feel like i'm back to my old self. the old self that scold people & beat people. the old self that always have a angry face. the old self that don't joke or talk to anyone. the old self that the teachers all hate. the old self that would ruin my life FOREVER. a U-Turn sign show up in my path of life. maybe by now, i walk pass the sign. maybe by now, i already give up loving you. give up trusting you. ask me who i love now and i will tell you, "nobody". i hate that i love you so. maybe some day, i'll go tattoo the word HATRED. reminding me not to love you again.

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